1. |
Echo
03:47
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what do you wanna do tonight?
i ask a question when i think my answer's wrong
remember the last time we got in a fight?
i couldn't say what was on my mind
disappointed in myself
for letting you think
i'm somebody else
two eyes in the rearview
looking over and behind
for someplace to find you
or see myself in your eyes
promises swallowed
made us shallow as the wind
grasping at nothing
grasping
at
nothing
i don't want to be another echo
i don't want to be someone you let go
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2. |
Moonwater
03:49
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running under coils of steam
running out of threadbare sheets
running over all the memories
i won't leave behind
humming our favorite song
remember what it takes
thumbing through picture books
translated i'm in love
with what you're doing with your energy
it isn't what it seems
it isn't what it seems
strumming my favorite chord
in a bedroom with four windows and a white chest of drawers
i remember it, the way you held me
i'll never sleep like that again
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3. |
The Sweets
03:49
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and there's no rest
just repeat, repeat, repeat
even when i sleep
there's no relief, relief
and you wonder why i drag my feet
stuck in the wet cement
of time and
lost light and
compete, compete, compete
but i'm trying
i swear i am
you can't be mad
i'm trying
you can't be mad
but i can
and there's nothing new
just repeat, repeat, repeat
same goes for you
now i see, repeat, repeat
and you said you'd cut an ear off too
and i knew you couldn't
until i let my teeth get
whet with the sweets
but i'm trying
i swear i am
you can't be mad
i'm trying
you can't be mad
but i can and i am
i'm trying
but we're both dying
to have something
to show for all this nothing
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4. |
Goddess Under Exclusions
03:50
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can't keep my feet on the ground
can't keep my mouth around
everything i should eat
everything choking me
what do i have?
what can i lose?
but nothing moves
like you and me
shoulders down
slouching into the breeze
all i have to lose
are the shapes i bend to
trying to fit in the grip
closing in on everything
all i asked for
was someone
i got none
i got everyone
but no one moves
like you and me
let me lean
set me free
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5. |
Week of Charm
03:29
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clouds are on the shoreline
we played house
pretending to be simple
we couldn't keep on lying like that
storms pass but this wasn't that
there's a current
you get caught in
those thorny tides
along for the ride
opposites attract but magnetic for what?
to hold all that you refuse
white knuckles can't hold all that
you knew, you knew
what i didn't
what i didn't
there's a current
you get caught in
those thorny tides
along for the ride
but it wasn't right
why hold so tight
to something blocking out
your true self
over and over
all over
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6. |
Hard Candy
04:20
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tiny victories all alone
always live like no one's home
hear their footsteps'
cloying undertow
tempting with their candy jars
you can't save me
you can't save me
you can't save me
look out the window from the floor
avoid the dust, avoid the claws, a void to noise
except that constant rustling
of your foil falling below your knees
laid down, naked, hard as bone
without the fleshy soft parts that you've grown
accustomed to
covering
to stop that black hole from creeping in
you can't save me
you can't save me
you can't save me
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7. |
Saying Goodbye
04:19
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tell me i don't make sense one more time
all my fingers on the knife, tell me again
how what i laid out isn't right
never done this before
never doubted me more
oh beginner's luck
never doubt the fact that this is you dumping what you
didn't want in my lap
what do i say when you don't hear me?
what do i say when you won't hear me?
do you even see me or just the outline of someone you used to have?
someone you used to hold?
someone who broke your heart?
someone who used to tell you no?
what's crazy is thinking you're someone i want
what's crazy is keeping you around
when what i want is in the small things
how can you show me you care, show me you'll be there if you can't even hear?
what do i say when you won't hear me?
what do i say when you don't hear me?
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8. |
Sippy Cup
04:09
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burning
spit it up
the hellfire in your stomach
let it out and into a sippy cup
tie a bow around it
a gift for now, of it
the buttercream frosted
rage i baked is in the icebox
make it cute
make it cut
make it true
make it up
whatever you wouldn't do in the situation
stack the knives and the plates
tucked away, nothing left to break
there's another time and place
to make that play
make it cute
make it cut
make it true
make it up
whatever doesn't suit the situation
make it cute
make it cut
make it true
make it what
ever you wouldn't do in the situation
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9. |
Pivot
04:20
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if i could only find a banana split
that would last me half as long as this
commute on a pivot
between an apple and two oranges
was it worth it?
was it worth it?
what is worth it?
what is worth this?
a wallflower planted under a neon sign
can you make it if you can't fake it
flooded in synthetic light how do you survive
if you never get to sleep at night?
was it worth it?
was it worth it?
what is worth it?
what is worth this?
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10. |
The Wheel
05:27
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do you still think of me?
i know you're not enough
but i want to know if i mattered
like an incision leaves a scar
like a tumor leaves a wound,
more room for me to move
but i just feel the emptiness
of what i fought to lose
like i wasn't the one who removed it
like i wasn't the one who couldn't prove it
like it was just someone
like all the books told us
like it was only one
even though it wasn't
i haven't apologized
for every little thing i fumbled, mistook or had to rethink
is that asking you to the very same thing that i refuse?
like i wasn't the one who removed it
like i wasn't the one who couldn't prove it
like i was just someone like everybody told us
like it was only one even though it wasn't
because nothing's overlapping like the real cause
nothing's overlapping enough to give real pause
to every single pair soaking it all in
to all the eyes and ears
hanging by a thread
upside down with you hands in the muck, nothing's moving
as slow as you are, the right it wants what the left's protecting
and it isn't martyrdom and it isn't what you lack
but 'round and 'round you go until you give in to it
give in to it
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